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Tuesday, July 14, 2009
How do you give?
Why does a Tuesday feel like a Friday?  2 of my colleagues gave this to me this afternoon as a farewell gift. Thank you, Peijun and Shihui. (: What would you do when you are going to part with someone? Do you write him a letter? Do you give them a present? Do you... Well, I guess everyone handles this situation differently. Some people may even think that giving anything at all is redundant. Some people may not even say goodbye. Some people will do all they can to secure the little memories they hold with each other. I read the letters written to me by the 2 of them just now and I got a feeling which I've lost a long time ago. If you were to ask me to describe the feeling in words now, I can say I don't know how to. It was really sweet and sincere of them, really. It makes me smile. I asked, "Why must you write letter?" Actually, I used to write them too, when I was younger. Maybe it was when I thought no one would really appreciate it that I stopped doing that. Or maybe I got lazy. Or maybe I think that people would think it's too weird for a guy to be so sentimental. I don't know, I just know that I've stopped writing. But I know I'm still me inside, just that I had tried to be like the majority, hiding who I really am. I dislike people thinking I'm weird, looking at me like I'm an alien. However, I am not going to do that from now on, because people who like you will stay by your side, not because you are like someone, but because you are who you are.  Posted by Xie Bin at 11:44 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Photos from the new DSLR
Thank you so much Roti and wendelane for your comments on my previous post. Really, I appreciate you putting aside some of your time to write to me. I feel so much better after reading them. I just want to let you know how much these words from you mean to me. Thank you, and thank you. (: Actually, after what has happened, I think I've grown stronger. Of course, I'll feel upset, but what's happened has already happened, no use pondering over it further. Just take it as another lesson to learn to be stronger. Thinking positive has helped me to become a happier person. It's not easy, but I'm trying really hard. Life is short, I have no time to waste over sad and unworthy things. So much of my philosophy. Anyway, I have so much stuff to do these days, everything is piling up and not making progress. I think that's what happens when you procrastinate, but my stamina has been running low recently, and I just can't help it. I should just start with one of them instead of seeing them as a whole, it makes life easier. One at a time. (Fell asleep) Alright I was too worn out yesterday so this entry continues to drag on another day. We had Wii party together for the first time yesterday at my house! Woots! But I shall write about this another day because now I have another outing to update on. Surely must update because Eric brought his Canon DSLR along! Finally my shabby digital camera can step down. Really, I need to get another camera soon to replace the current one, just in case next time my aunt needs to use it. Because the one I have been using actually belongs to my aunt. So next time try not to lend me another thing, as I'll abuse it. Ok just kidding.  Finally tried Seoul Garden for the first time on Wednesday. Think I've been living in the mountains or something, haven't tried a lot of things despite how old I am now. But well, there's always a first time, isn't it? This dinner was meant to celebrate BFF becoming a licensed driver and Xiaoyan finishing her exams but I think it's just another excuse for ourselves to gather and spend money on good food. Some photos to share taken with Eric's DSLR and you will see the difference between the quality of the photos taken with my camera and the expensive DSLR.    Ok I gonna explain - Ice cream on my chin and I was forced not to wipe it off until a photo was taken.            Presenting you the new photographer of Our Days with his professional DSLR. I, the old photographer, am finally eliminated.  Last photo with my worn digital camera before I stepped down. Hey my camera can be a mini DSLR too alright!           I don't really have to write much when the photos are speaking for themselves, do I?
Posted by Xie Bin at 12:48 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Stay Positive and Happy
 "Wow! Finally an update!!!" Is this your reaction? If so, I'm glad. If not, it's okay too. Many things happened during this one month, which caused me to deal much with my emotions and feelings. I caused myself to feel really miserable and I almost couldn't get myself back. But, after talking to my good friend Candy about what was troubling me, I felt so much better. It' so good to have someone who can lend a listening ear and give advice, especially someone who will not judge me. Now I realise if you have problems, talk to someone about it. You will feel better after letting them out. It doesn't necessarily mean the problem will be solved immediately if you tell someone, but you'll definitely feel much better. The thing is, finding someone who you can trust and is willing to really listen to you is really not easy. No matter what, I believe that everyone can find someone who is willing to do that for you. I know if you know me in real life, you may think how funny (or fake) I may sound here, but I guess only people who understand me well enough will think otherwise. I don't want to pretend I'm happy when I'm not. Because sometimes, in real life, you got to put on a smile under circumstances, like an outing shouldn't be ruined just because you are feeling really sullen. But, I have no reason to do that here. If I'm happy, it means I'm happy, If I'm not, then I'm really not. Actually something happened today which caused me to battle with my emotions again, but some things are not meant to be shared with everyone, so I'm not sharing it here. But my point is, I'm trying really hard to bring myself together and carry on with my life. I must stay positive and happy. Everyone should. Well anyway, I don't know what's with the Twitter craze recently, but I got myself an account and tried it out. Not bad actually, at least now I don't have to create a new blog entry when I just want to share some small updates with my friends. Feel free to follow me or just check the sidebar for any Twitter updates from me. Posted by Xie Bin at 7:18 PM
Monday, June 08, 2009
A Brand New Monday
i'm now using my family computer and i'm in the living room. i'm not using my laptop to write this new entry because my laptop is located in my bedroom and nowadays i can't seem to concentrate on writing an entry when i happen to on my laptop. maybe it's giving off too much heat and causing me heat rashes. nah, just kidding. but that's what happens - i off the laptop and bounce onto my bed with a book on hand. that's right, i'm kind of losing my virtual self. is that a good thing? just a moment ago before dinner, i sat in front of the window and stared out blankly for 15 minutes or so. i guess it's a good way to relax after a hectic day. well, not really hectic for me today but i was feeling really moody. thinking back, i left the house for work in a really good mood. it's monday after all, a brand new day of a new week. i don't understand what's with this monday blues woe that everyone's suffering from. i think it's just an excuse to make one moody. ok, so i was feeling really great from home to work, but when i reached my workplace, it seemed like everywhere was surrounded by this monday blues aura. and this was when my mood began to decelerated from a good to a bad. but i still tried to cheer myself up now and then when someone talked to me. it's different when someone comes up and strike a conversation with you than when you try to take the initiative. because everytime you take the initiative to talk to someone, you're risking getting a 'not interested' reply or look. rejection that is. but to me, when someone comes up to me and talk to me, it never fails to brighten up my day a little, because it means that there's someone who is willing to listen to my reply. in my 20 years of life, i have come across many people who don't really care about my feelings or my words, took me for granted, or treated me badly. i guess i can never forget because all these are buried deep within me. sometimes i wonder what's really wrong with me that makes people treat me that way. i doubt myself. but, no matter what, allowing me to continue moving on are strengths given to me by those who really care for me, those who are willing to stand by my side, and those who are not embarrassed to be with me. embarrassed? yes, i do feel that there are people who are ashamed to have me as their friend. call me sensitive, it's just a feeling i get when i'm with certain people. unhappy stuff are buried within me, but i can choose not to dig them up again and just leave them where they are, and let happy stuff pile up above them. Posted by Xie Bin at 8:23 PM
Monday, June 01, 2009
We live for ourselves, not for others.
"we live for ourselves, not for others." i used to like this sentence a lot. in fact, i admired it, how powerful this sentence speaks for itself. we have to live for ourselves, we do things for our own good, just like we help others so we can see others happy, and when they are, we will be too. isn't that for our own benefits too? but as time passes, i come to realise this sentence isn't all that convincing. we are all living for others all the time. we care what others think. when we have to make choices, others aspects other than yourself come to mind. if everyone were to live for themselves, will the world be a different one? will it be a happier one, or a miserable one? maybe there are people who can, but i know that i can't. i know i won't be happy if i do. maybe i'll change in the future. Posted by Xie Bin at 10:27 PM
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